End of Week Two

I was so excited by my huge weight loss last week and now I am just feeling really discouraged.  I know that after awhile you will reach a plateau...but on week 2??  I am eating well under 2,000 calories a day when before I bet I was eating almost 3,000.   I don't get it.

All I drink is water and diet pop (unless beer is listed).

Wednesday (continued from last week):  2 chicken legs

Thursday:  A footlong ham sub from subway (eaten throughout the day) with no cheese and lite mayo plus all the veggies, a cookie, and a pear. 

Friday:  A pear, a nectarine, 2 Michelina's lean gourmet rice and chicken meals.  

Saturday:  A hamburger on the George with ketchup, tomato and onion, and 15ish light beers.  

Sunday:  (bad day)  A chicken chimichanga with refried beans, sour cream, guac, hot dog with ketchup and mustard, and a necatrine. 

Monday:  Michelina's lean gourmet, tuna noodle casserole, and green beans.

Tuesday:  A grapefruit, a banana, seven layer salad and a pack of 100 calorie right bites. 

Today (so far):  A banana

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8
Weight last week:  178.6
Current weight on June 29th: 177.8

Weight loss since last week:  .8 lbs

Total weight loss: 6 lbs

End of Week One

It's been a week already!  I have been sticking to not overeating.  I went for a 47 minute power walk around my lake.  It felt so good to get my blood pumping and I actually felt more awake and energized afterward.  I am planning on doing that at least twice a week.

I have been at Regina's so I drank with her boyfriend last night and Monday night.

Saturday:  A sugar-free rockstar, protein bar, potato salad, pasta salad, and half of a ham bagel sandwich with cheese, lettuce and tomato.  


Sunday:  Pork roast with a cooked carrot, half a potato, salad, cheese sandwich, and a can of apricot halves in 'lite' syrup. 


Monday:  Pork loin, mashed potatoes and gravy, salad, asparagus, Michelina's chicken alfredo, 2 slices of bread, 12 Bud Select 55 and 1 Keystone Light.  


Tuesday:  Wheat thin crackers, Michelina's salisbury steak and mashed potatoes, popcorn, half a tuna sandwich, Michelina's chicken alfredo, and 15 light beers.  


Today:  2 eggs, toast and hashbrowns with onions so far. 


I am going to eat more later but I will include that in my next entry.  

Starting weight on June 15th: 183.8
Current weight on June 22nd: 178.6

Total weight loss:  5.2 lbs.

Fitness Facebook?

My roommate from last year introduced me to an extremely cool website.  www.myfitnesspal.com.  You can track your food and physical activity throughout the day and gain support from others.  When you first sign up you put your current weight, height, goal weight, and how much you plan on exercising and it will tell you how many calories/fat/protein you should eat and how much weight it projects you'll lose in a period of time!

So cool!!

Update Changes

I am going to update weekly instead of daily.  I have a journal where I write down everything I eat and do, so every Wednesday night I will put what I ate for the week and what I did.  I think it will be easier to see what I ate for the whole week together :)  This is also the day where I will weigh myself, so I think it will go nicely together.

If I have any pictures or thoughts during the days I am not updating my food intake/activity I will post those.  So, make sure you look on other days besides Wednesday or subscribe!

Thanks everyone for the kind words and encouragement.

-DeAnna

Day 2

I didn't have work today, so I slept in until about 1 pm which means no breakfast.

I had dinner at 4:30 which consisted of a glass of milk, a taco with beans, beef, cheese, tomato, lettuce, onion, sour cream and black olives, and a square of a blueberry/cream cheese/cake dessert.  

At 6 I put in a job app, picked up BK for my brother and nephew (super difficult not to get something...especially a shake or icee).  I picked up a large unsweetened iced tea at Speedway.

Getting up early for The Field of Green Festival.

-DeAnna

Day 1

After I posted last night I had dinner:


Ham, Miracle Whip, mustard, and American cheese sandwich on homemade bread with cottage cheese on the side.  (I am going to put food I eat in green and any 'exercise' in red.)


I went to bed around 8:30 last night.  I had been up for almost 24 hours so I was very tired.  I woke up at 5:30 this morning and started getting ready for my hour trip to my unpaid internship.  (Oh! By the way, I was going to mention that I am living at home and have NO income, so I pretty much have to eat whatever my skinny family eats/buys haha). 


At work I ate a blueberry yogurt at 9:00 am, a cheese sandwich at 11 am and string cheese and crackers at 1 pm. 


 I arrived back home around 6:30 with dinner awaiting me.


I had 3 fried frog legs, 2 pieces of fried bluegill, asparagus and a bowl of cottage cheese with pineapples and bananas.   

Normally I would have kept eating until all of the food was gone.  I could have easily eaten 8 more pieces of fish.  It's so good!  I stopped eating as soon as I felt 'full'.  It takes a lot for me to feel full these days because my stomach (the actual organ) has expanded so much from gorging.  I think once I go through a few weeks of not overeating it will shrink some and make it easier to eat less...or at least I hope.  


I decided that I am going to do jumping jacks for a half an hour while watching TV.  I will let you know how that goes tomorrow.   Another thing I have been doing is constantly clenching my stomach muscles.  I sit at work on a computer all day and it's fun to see how long you can do it.  I also have been holding my feet above the ground in front of me while sitting.  You can actually feel it in  your legs and tummy.  I figure, hey it can't hurt.  I heard somewhere once that it's helpful.


Time to go do my jumping jacks and watch Criminal Minds.  


-DeAnna

First Weigh In and Picture

This is easily the most horrifying and courageous thing I have ever done.  Please be mature and keep any crude comments to yourself.  I am putting myself out there to hopefully help and encourage others as well as myself.  I can't believe how much I am shaking!


I am always making excuses and am so impatient with losing weight. I want it to happen so fast and get discouraged.  I am not calling this a diet and I am going to be completely honest with everything I post. I am just trying to make smarter decisions and hopefully it will pay off and show people you don't have to be miserable to lose weight.


I never thought I could let it get this bad.  I kept putting it off and saying I wasn't too heavy yet and it would be easy to lose.  The pounds have been accumulating way more rapidly over the last year.  Time for action. 


I am going to weigh myself once a week - Wednesday after work before dinner.  That's right now!  

Weight at 6:00 pm June 15, 2011. 


I don't have an action plan:  That has never worked for me.  I over think it and sabotage myself.  I am going to start out slow with my changes.  A few things I am sure of - no eating when full, small portions, one 'sweet' a day (I love sweets), no eating within 3 hours of bedtime, and limiting my alcohol intake. 

My Story.

First of all, I know there are going to be girls who don’t like me who will look at this and call me a “fat ass” among other things, guys who will just think I am plain gross and exes who will wonder what happened to the skinny(er) girl they were with.  All I have to say is, “shove it.”  This will be one of the hardest things I will ever do and hopefully one of the most beneficial for me as well as others.  

I will be posting pictures of my journey (hence the disclosure ^^^).  

I was always a skinny child.   My Stepdad used to steal the line from some movie, “you’re so skinny you could hula hoop through a Cheerio.”  This used to make me laugh but even at a young age (10 or so) I felt fat.  

Now that I look back on it - it’s really freaking ridiculous that a 90 lb 10 year old can feel fat.  I am not going to blame the media or “Hollywood”, but I do know a big part of the feeling I was having was because of my family.  Ever since I can remember my Mom would complain about her “fat legs”…she weighed 98 lbs when I was young.  I don’t think that’s what made the most impact, though.  It was my Dad’s side of the family.  Everyone.  I mean EVERYONE (well, other than a couple) were (are) tall and super skinny.  I don’t know if that is the main reason my Dad has a huge problem with pudge, but I know it is a contributing factor.  I am going to use past tense - but trust me - this is still happening.  We would go out and eat and if there was an overweight person my Dad would blatantly snarl and say something under his breath about how gross they were OR maybe even worse - he would laugh and say, “Jesus.”  I always thought this was really mean, but I would chuckle and nod.  

There was something that my Dad said to me in high school that will always stick with me.  Track season had started up so I had been practicing for a couple weeks.  I came home one night and my Dad said, “you’re looking a lot better now.  Your face has lost some weight.  I can tell.”  I was dumbfounded.  I didn’t realize there was a problem with my face before that my Dad had apparently been harboring. I started skipping breakfast and lunch and throwing up occasionally. (Luckily I do not and did not have the 'willpower' to become bulimic or anorexic - it was more of a "pity me" phase).    I was 5’8” and 132 lbs.  

Side note:  I love my Dad more than anything and he is not a bad person.  Don’t get the wrong idea.  We all have our “things.”

Anyway, I realize that’s not traumatic or anything but I actually think that has contributed to my consistent weight gain after high school in a weird way.  You would think that because of this I would be really conscious of my weight (out of ‘respect’ for my Dad or something) but in reality I have always just felt too heavy.  Even being that 5’8” and 132 lbs I wouldn’t go to the beach without a towel up to my chin and I sure as hell wouldn’t wear short shorts (fat legs).  I honestly didn’t even feel comfortable in tank tops (fat arms).  What I am getting at is - I have just stopped caring about gaining weight because I already always felt huge (which in turn made me feel like a bad person).  Kind of like if someone is constantly accusing you of lying you might as well do it - you’re suffering the repercussions anyway.  

I started college 5 years ago at 135 lbs and am currently a 23 year old, 180 lb (ish) college graduate.  I will begin this journey and post my first picture as soon as I get a scale (ugh).  There are many factors to my weight gain - stress, depression, hopelessness after it started, no more sports, starting to drink alcohol, college food etc - but it should never have gotten this far and I can’t believe it has.  I can’t believe I am f*cking CLINICALLY OVERWEIGHT.  

I am going to update this blog every day (unless I am at Kory’s with no internet - I will keep a journal and update everything when I get home).  I am going to say what I ate and any activities I did that day and whatever else.  I will update my weight every week and my picture at least once a month. I am not going on a “diet” or whooping my ass in the gym.  I am just going to try and make myself more conscious of what I am consuming, get off my ass and hopefully give some  inspiration.  One thing that really sucks about weight loss - to do it without starving yourself it takes for GD ever.  I hope this blog will keep me going.  I want to get down to a healthy weight of 145 lbs.  I don’t have a set timeline.  I will begin establishing goals once I see how it goes :)

Senior year of high school feeling huge.  If only I would have known I would gain 45 lbs.