End of Week Sixteen (I guess?)

Hey everybody!

So, I took a long break from this whole weight loss thing... I started going back to old habits - eating while full, eating late, going to buffets, and just eating crap.   I gained about 8 pounds back.  I was really afraid that I wasn't going to be able to lose it.  What's insane is that I have only been really watching what I eat for the last week and a half and I am actually less than I was at my last weigh-in before the debauchery ensued.  I haven't been starving myself or anything at all.  I really hope to lose at least 10 more =]

Eating about the same as I was before.  I do different reps with 10 lb hand weights every night, but that's about it.

This is the least I have weighed in about 2 years.  I am pretty excited.

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8 
Weight last weigh-in on August 17th : 164.6
Current weight on October 5th:  159.2
Weight loss since last weigh-in:  5.4 lbs
Total weight loss:  24.6 lbs


I know that this looks weird but I had to make a collage in Picasa and then use my snipping tool in order to save it to upload it onto here.   My weight loss from the first picture is 24.6 and my weight loss since the second picture is 11.6.  I wish they were all the same distance from the camera and such but I did my best haha. 

End of Week Ten (late)

So, I left the window in my car down a crack and it ruined my scale.  I am going to get another one soon.  I will either be updating end of week 11 or week 12.  I am going to start being active and just putting activities instead of what I eat.  It is honestly a pain to type out everything I eat and it's pretty much always the same.  The point was I am not starving myself and still losing weight =]  Keep checking back!

End of Week Nine.

Thursday contd:  Lean Gourmet chicken alfredo and slice of bread, an apple 
Friday:  Foot long turkey sub on wheat with all the veggies plus lite mayo and sweet onion sauce, Lean Gourmet 5 cheese ziti, slice of bread, bowl of banana split ice cream 
Saturday:  Lean Gourmet pasta with shrimp and veggies, 2 small chicken breast, fresh peas, and a baked potato with butter, 5 light beers, and 4 whiskey diets 
Sunday:  Rice, chicken, peas, and cream of chicken (2 bowls), Lean Gourmet chicken florentine and a piece of bread. 
Monday:  Foot long turkey sub, chicken breast
Tuesday:  2 ice cream bars, Lean Gourmet meatloaf meal, boiled zucchini and summer squash, a slice of bread.  
Wednesday: 2 hot fudge sundae pop tarts, one white Russian 

Yeah, I need to paint my toenails haha.  And my brother's scale is grimy. 

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8 
Weight last week on August 11th : 167.4
Current weight on August 17th:  164.6
Weight loss since last week:  2.8 lbs
Total weight loss:  19.2 lbs


Looks like the weight loss is back on!  

Two Months.

This didn't go how I expected after how great the first month went.  It's not all bad though because I only gained a tiny bit of weight since my weigh-in 2 weeks ago.  I started new medication and have had unbelievable financial stress!  I think my body is regulating and these next 4 weeks will be more productive.  I am definitely not content and I really hope that for next week's weigh-in I will have knocked off a couple more pounds!!

I lost my journal where I kept the list of everything that I have eaten over these last two weeks.  I am super bummed.  I will say that I have eaten unhealthy quite a few times and am pretty shocked that I haven't really gained any weight back.  I am going to go back to not eating anything really high in fat.  I have only had fast food once in the last 2 months (taco bell) and it actually made me feel awful!  I am not feeling too discouraged because I am actually just relieved I haven't gained anything after kind of 'cheating' and having a change in lifestyle.  I am ready for next week to get here so I can see that I am still progressing!!

Even though this is my 2 months I am not going to take a picture because I am only about 3 lbs different from my last one.   If I lose more than 5 lbs in the next 2 weeks I will take an updated body picture then.  I am confident I will lose at least that much.  I am going to start working out this weekend...nothing outrageous.   

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8

Weight last week (2 weeks ago) :  167.2

Current weight on August 11:  167.4

Weight (gain) since 2 weeks ago:  .2 lbs  (.1 lbs a week)

Total weight loss: 16.4 lbs


I just weighed myself again and am at 167 even...so maybe I didn't gain any weight!  

Crap.

I don't know what's going on but it's becoming more difficult for me to lose weight.  I think I may have gained a few pounds since my last weigh-in.  I am too scared to look.  I really need to start exercising now that a lot of my initial weight has come off.  I have been super stressed lately...I think that may have something to do with it.  I am definitely not giving up but I am feeling discouraged.  I lost so much in a months time...I really wanted to have a drastic change for my 2 month.  I think I may almost be about the same =/

End of Week Six (including week five).

I didn't do week five because I wasn't at home and it was the day after my birthday and I knew I would be feeling bad about what I ate.  These whole two weeks have had a lot of shortcomings, but I am ready to get completely on the right track again.   I am just going to average my weight loss between the two weeks.


Wednesday contd:  Vegetable soup and a bag of organic popcorn.
Thursday:  Egg whites, a sausage link, ham sandwich, and a bowl of yogurt and huckleberries. 
Friday: A piece of wheat bread, slice of cheese, grilled hot dog (plain), and 10 PBRs. 
Saturday: A footlong wheat chicken breast sub from Subway (all veggies and lite mayo and sweet onion).
Sunday:  Tuna sandwich, a peach, cooked carrots, and a chicken breast, and superman ice cream cone. 
Monday:  Chicken breast sandwich with chipotle mayo, green beans, mint choco chip ice cream cone. 
Tuesday:  A roast beef sandwich, lasagna at olive garden, 3 breadsticks, two bowls of salad, and 8 light beers.  (My birthday...I wanted to eat =])
Wednesday:  6 fishsticks, a tuna sandwich, green beans, and chips and cheese (another naughty day...bday contd haha)
Thursday:  Handful of Gardettos, a small picece of breakfast casserole with egg/cheese/bacon, a bowl of berries, and salad with zesty italian. 
Friday:  A banana, a piece of wheat bread, slice of cheese, a taco with tomato, lettuce and onion. 
Saturday:  Half a ham sandwich (plain), bowl of salad with italian dressing, bowl of cottage cheese and pineapple, and a bowl of rice krispies.
Sunday:  Half a ham sandwich, bowl of cottage cheese, a tomato, and a bowl of tomato soup. 
Monday:  Half a cucumber, a tomato, a little coleslaw, a piece of ham, and a bowl of salad with zesty italian dressing.
Tuesday:  A piece of wheat bread and cheese, a bowl of fruit, a pickle spear, and a chicken breast sandwich with chipotle.  
Wednesday (so far): A banana (I have a stomachache from hell). 

I know this is super blurry.  My Dad has the good camera.  Haha.

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8

Weight last week (2 weeks ago) :  170.8

Current weight on July 27th:  167.2

Weight loss since last week:  3.6 lbs  (1.8 lbs a week)

Total weight loss: 16.6 lbs

One Month!!!

I have made it a month!  I am going to upload pictures that I just took.  You can compare them to the beginning.  I am by no means finished with this, but it's to see the change from month to month.  I am extremely proud of the self control I have showed and am so grateful to this blog for keeping me going.  I was really worried after this last weekend because I had pizza which I swore I wouldn't eat, drank some alcohol, and gorged on hummus and crackers. I had actually gained 2 lbs when I got home but after resuming business as usual shed them and then some.  It's taught me to not get discouraged or beat yourself up.

I am currently drinking about 96 ounces of water a day.  My trips to the bathroom are a lot of exercise haha.

Wednesday contd:  Low fat cottage cheese, ham sandwich on whole wheat with mustard, and string cheese. 

Thursday: Egg whites and 2 pieces of toast, a tomato, low fat cottage cheese, 9 light beers, and 1 rum and diet.

Friday:  Honey mustard grilled snack wrap, salad with balsamic, A TON OF reduced fat crackers and olive hummus, a small piece of steak and green beans. 

Saturday:  Two pieces of wheat toast, 2 eggs, home fries, corned beef hash, Went tubing, 12 light beers, six inch veggie sub on wheat and a piece of veggie pizza. 

Sunday:  A slice of veggie pizza and a salad with light italian and almonds.  (slept most of the day...hungover).

Monday: A few bites of noodle casserole with hamburger and tomato, broccoli, carrots, salad with light italian and almonds, rice krispies with fresh berries and 1/2% milk.  

 Tuesday:  Vinegar coleslaw, cheese sandwich on whole wheat, pickles, sliver of huckleberry pie. 

Wednesday so far:  Rice krisipies with berries, a banana, and a doughnut. 

Before

After (1 month later)

After  (1 month later)

Before

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8

Weight last week:  173.2

Current weight on July 13th:  170.8

Weight loss since last week:  2.4 lbs

Total weight loss: 13 lbs

I won't be updating Wednesday of next week.  I will Thursday since I won't be home!

End of Week Three

I thought that this weigh-in might be kind of disappointing because I didn't go out and run/walk like I had planned on.  I also drank one night and gorged the next day.  After last week's loss of only .8 lbs I really needed a pick-me-up...and I got one!

On the days where I hardly eat anything it's not because I am starving myself.  I am honestly just not hungry.  I have noticed a drastic change in appetite which I think is due to the fact that my stomach has shrunk.  I do eat when I am hungry.  The biggest change I have noticed so far is my chin.  Over the last few months it was multiplying.  I could see it when I smiled and it grossed me out.  It's pretty much gone now =]

Updated picture next week Wednesday showing my body after one month on this journey. 

Wednesday contd:   Ham sandwich, pretzels, and string cheese. 

Thursday:  Low carb Monster, string cheese, and a banana. 

Friday:  Bread and turkey with mustard (eaten twice throughout the day), banana, cheese on toast, and a 4-piece McNugget. 

Saturday:  2 egg whites, toast, (salmon fillet, steamed broccoli, side salad with balsamic <---all at Brann's.), 6 rum and diets and 3.25 Bud Select 55s.  

Sunday: 2 hotdogs with onion, ketchup and mustard, a ham sub with mushrooms, lettuce, tomato, onion, and miracle whip, turkey burger patty, toast, and one scoop of mint choco chip on an ice cream cone. 

Monday:  Grilled chicken breast, fresh green beans, broccoli rice, watermelon slice and chips and salsa. 

Tuesday:  Homemade mac and cheese, chips and salsa, organic chocolate bar, and cheerios with a banana. 

Wednesday (so far):  A banana and a bag of cheerios

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8

Weight last week:  177.8

Current weight on July 6th:  173.2

Weight loss since last week:  4.6 lbs

Total weight loss: 10.6 lbs

End of Week Two

I was so excited by my huge weight loss last week and now I am just feeling really discouraged.  I know that after awhile you will reach a plateau...but on week 2??  I am eating well under 2,000 calories a day when before I bet I was eating almost 3,000.   I don't get it.

All I drink is water and diet pop (unless beer is listed).

Wednesday (continued from last week):  2 chicken legs

Thursday:  A footlong ham sub from subway (eaten throughout the day) with no cheese and lite mayo plus all the veggies, a cookie, and a pear. 

Friday:  A pear, a nectarine, 2 Michelina's lean gourmet rice and chicken meals.  

Saturday:  A hamburger on the George with ketchup, tomato and onion, and 15ish light beers.  

Sunday:  (bad day)  A chicken chimichanga with refried beans, sour cream, guac, hot dog with ketchup and mustard, and a necatrine. 

Monday:  Michelina's lean gourmet, tuna noodle casserole, and green beans.

Tuesday:  A grapefruit, a banana, seven layer salad and a pack of 100 calorie right bites. 

Today (so far):  A banana

Starting weight on June 15th:  183.8
Weight last week:  178.6
Current weight on June 29th: 177.8

Weight loss since last week:  .8 lbs

Total weight loss: 6 lbs

End of Week One

It's been a week already!  I have been sticking to not overeating.  I went for a 47 minute power walk around my lake.  It felt so good to get my blood pumping and I actually felt more awake and energized afterward.  I am planning on doing that at least twice a week.

I have been at Regina's so I drank with her boyfriend last night and Monday night.

Saturday:  A sugar-free rockstar, protein bar, potato salad, pasta salad, and half of a ham bagel sandwich with cheese, lettuce and tomato.  


Sunday:  Pork roast with a cooked carrot, half a potato, salad, cheese sandwich, and a can of apricot halves in 'lite' syrup. 


Monday:  Pork loin, mashed potatoes and gravy, salad, asparagus, Michelina's chicken alfredo, 2 slices of bread, 12 Bud Select 55 and 1 Keystone Light.  


Tuesday:  Wheat thin crackers, Michelina's salisbury steak and mashed potatoes, popcorn, half a tuna sandwich, Michelina's chicken alfredo, and 15 light beers.  


Today:  2 eggs, toast and hashbrowns with onions so far. 


I am going to eat more later but I will include that in my next entry.  

Starting weight on June 15th: 183.8
Current weight on June 22nd: 178.6

Total weight loss:  5.2 lbs.

Fitness Facebook?

My roommate from last year introduced me to an extremely cool website.  www.myfitnesspal.com.  You can track your food and physical activity throughout the day and gain support from others.  When you first sign up you put your current weight, height, goal weight, and how much you plan on exercising and it will tell you how many calories/fat/protein you should eat and how much weight it projects you'll lose in a period of time!

So cool!!

Update Changes

I am going to update weekly instead of daily.  I have a journal where I write down everything I eat and do, so every Wednesday night I will put what I ate for the week and what I did.  I think it will be easier to see what I ate for the whole week together :)  This is also the day where I will weigh myself, so I think it will go nicely together.

If I have any pictures or thoughts during the days I am not updating my food intake/activity I will post those.  So, make sure you look on other days besides Wednesday or subscribe!

Thanks everyone for the kind words and encouragement.

-DeAnna

Day 2

I didn't have work today, so I slept in until about 1 pm which means no breakfast.

I had dinner at 4:30 which consisted of a glass of milk, a taco with beans, beef, cheese, tomato, lettuce, onion, sour cream and black olives, and a square of a blueberry/cream cheese/cake dessert.  

At 6 I put in a job app, picked up BK for my brother and nephew (super difficult not to get something...especially a shake or icee).  I picked up a large unsweetened iced tea at Speedway.

Getting up early for The Field of Green Festival.

-DeAnna

Day 1

After I posted last night I had dinner:


Ham, Miracle Whip, mustard, and American cheese sandwich on homemade bread with cottage cheese on the side.  (I am going to put food I eat in green and any 'exercise' in red.)


I went to bed around 8:30 last night.  I had been up for almost 24 hours so I was very tired.  I woke up at 5:30 this morning and started getting ready for my hour trip to my unpaid internship.  (Oh! By the way, I was going to mention that I am living at home and have NO income, so I pretty much have to eat whatever my skinny family eats/buys haha). 


At work I ate a blueberry yogurt at 9:00 am, a cheese sandwich at 11 am and string cheese and crackers at 1 pm. 


 I arrived back home around 6:30 with dinner awaiting me.


I had 3 fried frog legs, 2 pieces of fried bluegill, asparagus and a bowl of cottage cheese with pineapples and bananas.   

Normally I would have kept eating until all of the food was gone.  I could have easily eaten 8 more pieces of fish.  It's so good!  I stopped eating as soon as I felt 'full'.  It takes a lot for me to feel full these days because my stomach (the actual organ) has expanded so much from gorging.  I think once I go through a few weeks of not overeating it will shrink some and make it easier to eat less...or at least I hope.  


I decided that I am going to do jumping jacks for a half an hour while watching TV.  I will let you know how that goes tomorrow.   Another thing I have been doing is constantly clenching my stomach muscles.  I sit at work on a computer all day and it's fun to see how long you can do it.  I also have been holding my feet above the ground in front of me while sitting.  You can actually feel it in  your legs and tummy.  I figure, hey it can't hurt.  I heard somewhere once that it's helpful.


Time to go do my jumping jacks and watch Criminal Minds.  


-DeAnna

First Weigh In and Picture

This is easily the most horrifying and courageous thing I have ever done.  Please be mature and keep any crude comments to yourself.  I am putting myself out there to hopefully help and encourage others as well as myself.  I can't believe how much I am shaking!


I am always making excuses and am so impatient with losing weight. I want it to happen so fast and get discouraged.  I am not calling this a diet and I am going to be completely honest with everything I post. I am just trying to make smarter decisions and hopefully it will pay off and show people you don't have to be miserable to lose weight.


I never thought I could let it get this bad.  I kept putting it off and saying I wasn't too heavy yet and it would be easy to lose.  The pounds have been accumulating way more rapidly over the last year.  Time for action. 


I am going to weigh myself once a week - Wednesday after work before dinner.  That's right now!  

Weight at 6:00 pm June 15, 2011. 


I don't have an action plan:  That has never worked for me.  I over think it and sabotage myself.  I am going to start out slow with my changes.  A few things I am sure of - no eating when full, small portions, one 'sweet' a day (I love sweets), no eating within 3 hours of bedtime, and limiting my alcohol intake. 

My Story.

First of all, I know there are going to be girls who don’t like me who will look at this and call me a “fat ass” among other things, guys who will just think I am plain gross and exes who will wonder what happened to the skinny(er) girl they were with.  All I have to say is, “shove it.”  This will be one of the hardest things I will ever do and hopefully one of the most beneficial for me as well as others.  

I will be posting pictures of my journey (hence the disclosure ^^^).  

I was always a skinny child.   My Stepdad used to steal the line from some movie, “you’re so skinny you could hula hoop through a Cheerio.”  This used to make me laugh but even at a young age (10 or so) I felt fat.  

Now that I look back on it - it’s really freaking ridiculous that a 90 lb 10 year old can feel fat.  I am not going to blame the media or “Hollywood”, but I do know a big part of the feeling I was having was because of my family.  Ever since I can remember my Mom would complain about her “fat legs”…she weighed 98 lbs when I was young.  I don’t think that’s what made the most impact, though.  It was my Dad’s side of the family.  Everyone.  I mean EVERYONE (well, other than a couple) were (are) tall and super skinny.  I don’t know if that is the main reason my Dad has a huge problem with pudge, but I know it is a contributing factor.  I am going to use past tense - but trust me - this is still happening.  We would go out and eat and if there was an overweight person my Dad would blatantly snarl and say something under his breath about how gross they were OR maybe even worse - he would laugh and say, “Jesus.”  I always thought this was really mean, but I would chuckle and nod.  

There was something that my Dad said to me in high school that will always stick with me.  Track season had started up so I had been practicing for a couple weeks.  I came home one night and my Dad said, “you’re looking a lot better now.  Your face has lost some weight.  I can tell.”  I was dumbfounded.  I didn’t realize there was a problem with my face before that my Dad had apparently been harboring. I started skipping breakfast and lunch and throwing up occasionally. (Luckily I do not and did not have the 'willpower' to become bulimic or anorexic - it was more of a "pity me" phase).    I was 5’8” and 132 lbs.  

Side note:  I love my Dad more than anything and he is not a bad person.  Don’t get the wrong idea.  We all have our “things.”

Anyway, I realize that’s not traumatic or anything but I actually think that has contributed to my consistent weight gain after high school in a weird way.  You would think that because of this I would be really conscious of my weight (out of ‘respect’ for my Dad or something) but in reality I have always just felt too heavy.  Even being that 5’8” and 132 lbs I wouldn’t go to the beach without a towel up to my chin and I sure as hell wouldn’t wear short shorts (fat legs).  I honestly didn’t even feel comfortable in tank tops (fat arms).  What I am getting at is - I have just stopped caring about gaining weight because I already always felt huge (which in turn made me feel like a bad person).  Kind of like if someone is constantly accusing you of lying you might as well do it - you’re suffering the repercussions anyway.  

I started college 5 years ago at 135 lbs and am currently a 23 year old, 180 lb (ish) college graduate.  I will begin this journey and post my first picture as soon as I get a scale (ugh).  There are many factors to my weight gain - stress, depression, hopelessness after it started, no more sports, starting to drink alcohol, college food etc - but it should never have gotten this far and I can’t believe it has.  I can’t believe I am f*cking CLINICALLY OVERWEIGHT.  

I am going to update this blog every day (unless I am at Kory’s with no internet - I will keep a journal and update everything when I get home).  I am going to say what I ate and any activities I did that day and whatever else.  I will update my weight every week and my picture at least once a month. I am not going on a “diet” or whooping my ass in the gym.  I am just going to try and make myself more conscious of what I am consuming, get off my ass and hopefully give some  inspiration.  One thing that really sucks about weight loss - to do it without starving yourself it takes for GD ever.  I hope this blog will keep me going.  I want to get down to a healthy weight of 145 lbs.  I don’t have a set timeline.  I will begin establishing goals once I see how it goes :)

Senior year of high school feeling huge.  If only I would have known I would gain 45 lbs.